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Oct. 15th, 2007 | 03:33 pm
location: Living Room
mood: confused confused
music: Drive you Home- Garbage

Well me and nick have been really off and on, and i properlly called it off last week only to put everything back on again. I think i do love him, but its hard, really fucking hard. Also to completely fuck about with things,I'm pregnant. I'm waiting to do tests, but i just know that i am. I know its Nick's which always makes things slightly less complicated but still. I know i could NEVER EVER get an abortion so i dont know what to do. I told him because its his child but i kinda wished i hadn't...I dont know. I mean i still want to try with him, but a child is like a massive commitment isnt it? I dont belive in the whole "staying together for the kids" bullshit but i dont want to raise a child on my own. I know my friends would help out, but its different than the actuall father being there.
IM SO CONFUSED i dont know what to do.The worst thing is that i can tell how happy nick is and every time he looks at me its like all i can see is how much he loves me. I cant bear telling my mother. She'll be so dissapointed and she'll think im stupid, which i guess is true.
I dont even know how i got pregnant, ive been stupidly carefull....
Anyway before i go completly mental im going to go for a lie-down, ive been so tired lately.

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From: sammykitten
Date: Oct. 15th, 2007 10:11 pm (UTC)

I'LL BE THE DADDY. I'll cut off all my hair and wear a strap on constantly!!!

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