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Aug. 12th, 2007 | 03:08 pm
music: Hall of Mirrors- Distillers
well just a quick splurge, to say that im pretty sure things are entering the end stages with me and nick. We cant talk to eachother for more than 5 minutes without it becoming a huge argument. We just dont connect any more and i want to cut my losses. It would be so much easier for me to get on with my life without him or his family. Im going to try and talk to him when i get back from being with sam and see if we can sort an easy way for me to move out. I know it sounds harsh, but that boy's used up all my love. And the thing that pisses me off the most is that everyone who said "it will all end in tears" is right. Even the sex has become boring. It's hurting like hell, but this is self preservation, i cant put myself through hell again and again "just in case". I dont need someone to define me, and love sure aint what its cracked up to be. Anyway going to get away with sam for a bit, hopefully clear my head so i can deal with the fallout easier. Need to start flat hunting....